Just say “F*$K it!

In today’s hustle and bustle, striving to be successful, and an  eyes on the prize type mentality, stress is bound to be lurking very close.  For most, it has seeped into our life without us noticing at first, and for some it will do its best to consume any and all hope of good. WeContinue reading “Just say “F*$K it!”


“I’ve had a rough life, mommy, K said.”

The words of my 6-year-old when discussing the recent past happenings of my making that bad decision.  I believe the words made me go deaf because I didn’t hear not one single word she said after that.  Instead, I saw a flash of key events that have led up t this point.  Today, while sitting withContinue reading ““I’ve had a rough life, mommy, K said.””

Persuant to..

The Children, or the New Girl? Divorce, in and of itself, puts and immeasurably tough strain on anyone, but especially on little kids They are too young to describe or tell you the way the situation makes them feel deep inside their tiny huge hearts. Or what they feel leading up to the big decision,Continue reading “Persuant to..”

StepMOM or Drill SGT?

Every mother hopes for the best with regards to their child’s father, their relationship, the relationship they have with the other family members on their father’s side, and should it be the case, the new woman in their lives that would be there to “fill-in” when the children are with him. In the case withContinue reading “StepMOM or Drill SGT?”

Mommy is on the phone….punishment???

“Mommy, we were playing, but we had to stop so we could talk to you.” The words of my six-year-old today when I asked to speak to them.  Words that in most cases seem benign of any cruelty or nastiness in most given situations.  However, in my recent history, the words have such a deeperContinue reading “Mommy is on the phone….punishment???”

Bootcamp or Childhood?

Pictures of the real smiles that my girls possess.  Pre-bad decision day.   There is no mistaking that a mother loves her children.  We grow them, nurture them within our own bodies, feel them move and kick us in places we never thought we had.  I knew instantly that I was having a little girlContinue reading “Bootcamp or Childhood?”

Our 1,2,3 Tradition

Meet me in your dreams, I’ll send you kisses on the wings of a butterfly until you can meet me there! From the very first day this horrible journey began, to help my oldest K to be able to process, connect, hug the emotions, and to cope with the loss of her everyday mommy, IContinue reading “Our 1,2,3 Tradition”

Contempt: How is a mother to deal?

During the process of this whole catastrophic mistake I have made, I think dealing with the obvious and deliberate contempt of court issues are the worst that I have had to deal with and still maintain a life, a house, and try to fit a business into everything. Today has been exceptionally horrible in thisContinue reading “Contempt: How is a mother to deal?”